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At this moment…while i’m sitting in front of the computer and typing this..my mind is flying across the sea to Sicily..damn! I’m back at work now! I just can’t believe that vacation is OVER!!

It has been 3 days at work now…and i’m still not used to it…have been taking 5 espressos a day that makes my heart beats like crazy and that makes me nervous and feel like screaming/puke it out..

Sicily is great..the people..the weather..the sea..especially the FOOD! Or god..i wonder how much weight did i put on..i don’t even want to think about it…

In palermo i met this 2 ‘gentlemen’ who show me which bus to take to the station and sang to me on the bus with the driver and some other passengers that they knew….some Sicilian song that sound more arabic than Italian…then an architect on the street when i was ‘thinking’ and observing the passerby under a status of someone…who gave me 2 days of free personal guided tour around the city…and a sandwich to eat on the train..went to the beach with 2 Siberian girl whom i met while i stayed with my host in palermo..visited a church of the Sicilian Saint San.Rosalio found in a cave on a moutain…drove a scooter for the 1st time up the vulcano on the Eolian island and got a ride from a policeman to the train station which i thought it’s 20mins by foot but actually more than an hour from the port on the way back…nearly got attacked by a jellyfish which came between me and my friend…ate a lot of desserts, seafoods and fried snacks…which is sooooooo good that when i’m thinking of it now makes my mouth watery and my stomach cries…drove (i was speeding to be precise) a motor boat with the lifeguards when they went petrolling and nearly kill us all cos i was going the opposite direction as thewaves on a rough sea but well..i was with lifeguards so they are supposed to take care of me right??! ^_^

So many people that i have met on the road…countless latenight talk and laugh..although none of them changed my life drastically but we definitely have left a trace in each other memory…which make me and
this trip whole.

Ah!!! Sicily..the sunshines and the sea breeze…the white greek style houses with balconies and arabic styles vases..the stinky and annoying strays dogs..the musty street..those crazy drivers on vespas and the staring from the local when they see me(I appeared to be the only asian in 50km)…the sweetnest of the desserts,the grilled seafoods and the white wines…the good and the bad…the prettinest and the uglinest of the town…i’m missing all of them…

Now i’m back to normal life…doing the same routine everyday…i can’t wait to pack my bag and hit the road again…till then, i’m appreciating the warmth of the morning sun, the freshness of the early breeze, the satisfaction after each meal,the colour of every living thing and an email from you to say hello..

Alright…so how long has it been since my last post here?? It’s kinda weird to see my cousin and my bro posting comments for me….you know…usually you tell your family and your friend different things…such as i don’t use f**k when i talk to them..(maybe i do with my bro…cos he’s not that kind who will go ‘mooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm’~~~~) and knowing that they are reading my blog makes me feel a little bit..well..let say ‘transparent..’ brrrrr…..

So, i have been working for 1 month now. For those who didn’t get my email, i’m here to announce that i’m not studying fashion marketing (i have to bold this because a lot of people still think that i study fashion design….) in Florence anymore but i’m working as an assistant stylist and doing researches as well in a leather company in a town called Brescia. It’s not a well known as a must-visit city beacuse of it’s facist history, and still is, and most of all it’s not that beutiful…nearly ugly i could say eventhough it’s the rich part and most advanced city of Italy. Geographically it’s located an hour away from Milan - the fashion capital. Our customers are big brands like Gucci and LV..and i really do hope that they will hire me after this 3 months of internship (although the stylist say that they probably would..but who knows?!)and so i’m keeping my fingers cross!! I don’t care what religion you are…if you are reading this, it means that you care about me, so please pray for ME..and if you don’t have one…still, pray for ME!!

Brescia isn’t as bad as i thought it would be…it pratically looks like a ghetto…you could find people from all over the world here..just named one and i can find at least 1 for you. But i found a really nice apartment, staying with really nice person. And my collegues are great! Especially the girl i’m working with! Eventhough sometimes you just can’t avoid having 1-2 bitches in the office… but that’s normal! (oh well..they are around their 40s…i forgive them cos they might be having menopause..nyok nyok nyok!!^_*)

Also,the lake is just 20mins away by train.I’m a frequent visitors and god i’m so tan now~ I look like a Brazillian~ No kidding! Im lovinggggggggggg it! ( don’t worry mama and my dear bro cos i always put sunblock and i don’t stay under the sun more than 2 hours during midday.)

My last working day would be the 11th! yuhooooooooooooooo. Then i’m going to Sicily. This friend of mine/housemate (the guy in the picture~) is going to sneak me in to clubmed, where he’s working..but there’s one problem….which is i would be the only Asian and they will probably find it out that i’m not a ‘client’! But what the hell do i care?! Since he insisted,(even he might lose his job if they find out..) and i can go on vacation ‘partially free’, why not?! I already got my train ticket (oh gezzz….18hour train ride…am i going to survive this??) and i’ll be in Sicily eating blood orange and singing/cursing in Sicilian on the 15th till the 22nd!!!!

Oh!!!
I can’t wait to lay on the beach, close my eyes and let my mind fly free.
I can’t wait to listen to the waves, look at seagulls and smell the sea.
I can’t wait to stay in the rain and dance on the grass.
It’s summer and i’m loving every bit of it~~

Wish me luck guys and take care~

Lots of luvs and hugs and kisses to everyone i know!

I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.
They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I’ve cried.
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.
The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?

In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song.
I don’t know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn’t be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I’ll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I’ve been?

I’ve traveled so far from home, and can’t find my way back.
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track…

So, i don't know if this is a good news or a bad one..I was told 2weeks ago that i'm accepted by a leather company in Brescia for the internship..Where the hell is this place? Oh forget it, you don't wana know....

There are only 10days left now, and I'm still looking for an apartment!! Besides, some shit happened today.....I can't believe what this Korean girl did to me! Since we were supposed to go to Brescia together to do the stage and being a 'friend' i gave up the single room i got and try to look for something bigger so she has a place to stay as well!!! Besides, i've spent so much money,time and energy making phone call when she's there doing nothing!!I don't mind doing all that, since if we are going towork together, 1st we will have to get along right? But today, she's wayyyyy too off!!! We were supposed to go to Brescia together to look for house..but then i got her sms telling me that she's already there!!! Looking fot a room for HERSELF since she wants everything to be settled asap (oh yea! Like i don't want to!!!) and if she couldn't find anything, then she'll let me know and we can stay together!!! DAMN! What kind of 'friend' is that and what she thinks i'm?! A fucking spared tire??

I was so mad and still am!!I was shouting in the phone when Carol called me...everyone was staring at me coz i was like ' 'I can't believe that f*cking bitch did that to me ! I'm so f*king nice to her and she f*cked up my f*cking life!!!I just want to get a f*cking gun and f*cking shoot her f*cking face!'ouzzzzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Anyway, because of her + i had a fight with my housemate (he snatched my phone and threw it on the floor, so now it's in 5 pieces..sweeeet...) + the hot and humid weather + too much boozes these days that  i can't think clear anymore + panic + stress on looking for appartment.... i didn't do my exam today..i kinda lied to the prof and actually get away with it! Dammit! I'm getting better and better in this!And she even agreed to send me the questionaire by mail so i can do them at home ...nice huh! Well...if she didn't, i think i'll break down in front of her....

Just took a bubble bath and now i'm fresh and ready to kick some ass!

So that's it!! Hope everyone ishaving fun...eventhough i'm stuck in hell!

The darkness stands in front of me with its dark deviled eyes but when i scream the wall soak up my scared cries.

I’m trapped inside this room in a place called hell. I don’t know how i got here and there is no way yo break out of this cell.

I have not one answer to what you want to know staring you in the eyes with your raging fire all aglow mesmerized by your stare, that you have cast upon me.

I’m lost here with no escape to reality and there is no ending to this…

When you are sad, I will get you drunk and help you plot revenge against the scum sucking bastard who made you sad.

When you are blue, I’ll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

When you smile, I’ll know you finally got laid.

When you are scared, I will dog you about it every chance I get.

When you are worried, I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and tell you to quit whining.

When you are confused, I will use little words to explain it to your dumb ass.

When you are sick, stay away from me until you’re well again, I don’t want whatever you have.

When you fall, I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath I pledge till the end. Why you may ask?

Because you’re my friend.

It’s kind of funny

When you think about it

The people that walk in your heart

The ones that stay

The ones that go

Some encounters are so quick

And others stay for awhile

The impact may be small

So that you don’t even notice a difference

But others you can’t forget

Because they changed your direction on the road

There’s ones that you may welcome

And hope they make a home

There’s ones that make holes

But from that you learn and grow

From my life what I have gathered

Is there are two people I will know

Ones that stay

And ones that go

So, my heart will remain open

And what you choose is up to you

1.Laughing so hard my face hurts.
2.Getting mail
3.Finding a 20 dollar bill in my coat from last winter
4.No lines at the supermarket
5.A hot shower
6.Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about me
7.Making eye contact with a cute stranger
8.Hot chocalate on rainy day
9.Giggling
10.Hearing my favorite song on the radio
11.Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
12.Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
13.A good conversation
14.Laughing at myself
15.Midnight phone calls that last for hours
16.Waking up and realizing that i still have a few hours left to sleep
17.Playing with a new puppy
18.Making new friends or spending time with old ones
19.Road trips with friends.
20.Knowing you’ve done the right thing,no matter what other people think

Yours?

So let see…what interesting happened pass few days…(haha! like you care to know.:P)

Well, i found out that there’s a Malaysian guy in my school called Preston in my school therefore i invited him over to my house for dinner. You know. We are both Malaysian so i thought we should hang out once in a while. Although i haven’t meet him before but i heard from a friend who is his classmate that he’s quite an asshole… whatever, just for dinner, nothing to lose.

Thought of going to a restaurant together but you know what he said? “Can’t i just come over and eat at your place?” What the****! And since i don’t have any food in my fridge (that’s why i prefer to eat out!!) so i have to rush to the supermarket and come back before 6pm to cook for him since he will be comign directly after gym.. oh right! Like i’m his maid or something..dammit!

So i cooked, and he came over around 6pm. Apparently he has been living 8 years in S.F and he’s all Americanized… he kept complaning rubbish like ‘OH! The people here aren’t beutiful! or ‘ Oh! They aren’t that rich here” I mean…WHO CARES?!! You ain’t that beutiful neither and why do you care so much about it! And bla bla bla… He also told me that he moved to a new apartment because he can’t stand the noise in the center.. bla bla bla..

Then the next evening, when i was out in a bar, i talked to a girl from Mozambique and she told me that she knows another guy who is from Malaysia as well…and his name is PRESTON!!! I can’t believe it! The world is soooooo smalll!! Well…the world might be big but Florence is definitely small! And apparently he WAS her housemate and since he’s really self-centered, phony, self-observed, disgusting…anyway, one word describe it all — ‘an asshole’ and therefore they voted him out of the house! WOW! But really..you have to talk to this guy to really know how terrible he’s..no kidding!

You know what? I really have to talk to more people in school just in case everyone thought that Malaysian are all assholes…like him. I have to let them know that we are actually friendly, nice, polite and humble!! hehe! I found myself something to do now…the ambassador of MAlaysia. lol!

And tonight, i’m going to an Irish Concert. Can’t wait. I’m sure it’s gonna be fun!Friends are coming over to taste my SATAY and CURRY! Yummy! Cooked them the 1st time and i hope they like it! Wah ha ha! My future career might be the onwer of a ”fancy malaysian fusion restaurant’! who knows?! Always have dream.
A friend of mine just got a news from his family back in Spain that his Granpa passed away. Aih…life is short…so really do have to appreciate it.

Ok..gotta go and put on a sweater…don’t wanna get sick coz i’m a poor stu.

P.s Book i’m reading now and think it’s really interesting - A short history of almost everything by Bill Bryson
Great book for those who likes Physic or Chemistry

Wow! I got a comment from mt dear friend Lamb lamb today…so that prove me wrong..there IS someoone who read my blog…oh may god..do’t make me hook up with this thing..NOOOO!!!! But this is fun actually.Lol!

So, it’s 11.17pm now. Outside is 13.6 C. I’ve just eaten and going to bed soon. Oh right..did you guys know that a person who sleeps approx. 4 hours everynight actually live longer than those who sleeps more than 6 hours every night? Never heard about it right?! But i read it on Times magazine so it should be from reliable source.. But well, i don’t think this applied to everyone since it depends on one body condition because everyone is different.Let say ME, If i sleep less 6 hours a day, my brain will shut off automatically every now and then the next day. I will drop things that i’m actually holding and then notice it 2 hours later, forgot that i’m talking on the phone and just hang it up etc. I’m lucky that i’m still here now. LOL!

Ok.. it’s 11.23pm. Gotta go to bed..wanna live long and prosperous. Just like every other chinese. LOL!

ZZzzzZZZ ZZZzzzz hey you! What are you doing here reading my blog? Go to bed lah!!